That is what this blogging community is to me.
I want to explain my journey back to WordPress but I also want anyone reading this to know that I am not beating myself up and that while the path was not perfect, it led me to where I needed and wanted to be.
Seven months ago I decided to try my hand at self-publishing. I made the big (and scary) move. I thought I was taking a leap. I thought I was being brave. I thought I was pushing and challenging myself to try something new.
I WAS doing all of those things, but I was also running.
Leaping and running towards a challenge that excites and even scares us is fantastic and an important part of self-improvement
It’s ok to run….as long as we’re running towards something and not away from something.
I was running away.
And once I got to my destination, I knew exactly what I was doing.
I never published a single post in my new home. I stopped writing in my new home. I never even fully unpacked in my new home.
I didn’t need a new home. I needed a break.
A Kinder Way is not my first blog. I’ve been blogging since 2009. The blogs have all been different, but they were blogs and this girl was tired. I was not being kind or even kinder to myself. There was nothing ‘’soft’’ about how I was treating myself.
There comes a time (and that time can happen repeatedly throughout our lives) where we don’t really recognize the person looking back at us in the mirror. I didn’t feel like myself and instead of realizing that I needed to rest, I decided to switch gears and try something totally new. Something that didn’t even align with my deepest desires.
Now, after a much-needed rest and time away from a world I’ve been a part of for over 10 years, I feel like I’ve found my way home. Home to WordPress but more importantly, home to the authentic Nichol that I had lost.
For those of you that know me, we also experienced a great loss while I was away. Our sweet and beloved Vivi suddenly passed away in December. This loss has devastated me. My heart and soul are battered and bruised and each day I face without her has been extremely difficult. In time I hope that I can think about her, talk about her…write about her….without feeling like my chest is crushing me but for now, I just feel what I feel and try to honor whatever comes up.
Thank you to those who have reached out. It means so much to me.
Lastly, I want you all to know how happy I am to be back home and as you know, I love a party so be on the lookout for my ‘’Back to Blogging’’ Meet and Greet weekend soon. Pop in and say hello…share your blog with others and enjoy a cyber drink with me!
I’ve missed you all so much.
Kindly, with love and light~