Coming Home

coming home

 

Home.

That is what this blogging community is to me.

I want to explain my journey back to WordPress but I also want anyone reading this to know that I am not beating myself up and that while the path was not perfect, it led me to where I needed and wanted to be.

Seven months ago I decided to try my hand at self-publishing. I made the big (and scary) move. I thought I was taking a leap. I thought I was being brave. I thought I was pushing and challenging myself to try something new.

I WAS doing all of those things, but I was also running.

Leaping and running towards a challenge that excites and even scares us is fantastic and an important part of self-improvement

It’s ok to run….as long as we’re running towards something and not away from something.

I was running away.

And once I got to my destination, I knew exactly what I was doing.

I never published a single post in my new home. I stopped writing in my new home. I never even fully unpacked in my new home.

I didn’t need a new home. I needed a break.

A Kinder Way is not my first blog.  I’ve been blogging since 2009. The blogs have all been different, but they were blogs and this girl was tired. I was not being kind or even kinder to myself. There was nothing ‘’soft’’ about how I was treating myself.

There comes a time (and that time can happen repeatedly throughout our lives) where we don’t really recognize the person looking back at us in the mirror.  I didn’t feel like myself and instead of realizing that I needed to rest, I decided to switch gears and try something totally new. Something that didn’t even align with my deepest desires.

Now, after a much-needed rest and time away from a world I’ve been a part of for over 10 years, I feel like I’ve found my way home. Home to WordPress but more importantly, home to the authentic Nichol that I had lost.

For those of you that know me, we also experienced a great loss while I was away. Our sweet and beloved Vivi suddenly passed away in December. This loss has devastated me. My heart and soul are battered and bruised and each day I face without her has been extremely difficult. In time I hope that I can think about her, talk about her…write about her….without feeling like my chest is crushing me but for now, I just feel what I feel and try to honor whatever comes up.

Thank you to those who have reached out. It means so much to me.

Lastly, I want you all to know how happy I am to be back home and as you know, I love a party so be on the lookout for my ‘’Back to Blogging’’ Meet and Greet weekend soon.  Pop in and say hello…share your blog with others and enjoy a cyber drink with me!

I’ve missed you all so much.

Kindly, with love and light~

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35 thoughts on “Coming Home

  1. It’s great to see you back, and I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been through so much. I’m sure you’ve emerged stronger for the experience, though, and I’m looking to forward to reading more from you soon 😊

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    1. I don’t know why we (meaning most people) feel the need to push through when we need a break. In my case what could have been a month turned into 7 because I just couldn’t see how simple a short break could have made things. I hope you take some time to be kinder to yourself. 😉 ❤

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  2. Nichol, it is so good to have you back on WordPress––and I hear you on needing a break. That is a great awareness! And, even though you may not have been kind to yourself at that time, it sounds like you learned a lot.

    And, Nichol, again, I am so sorry to hear about VIvi. Continuing to send blessings to you, and to Steve.

    Welcome back!!
    Love and Light,
    Debbie

    ps – can I share this post for #ForgivingFridays if I do the post this week? (I’m doing them monthly now.) It’s a beautiful reminder to (a) take a break when you need it and (b) be really good to yourself! ❤

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    1. Hi Debbie. Thank you so much. I am so grateful for your kindness and support. You are such a dear friend and I treasure that. Of course you can share my post. Always and anytime. ❤ I will tag it as well. ❤

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  3. You missed your call in life my dear ……You do have a way with words ””Thanks for the talk this morning ……Hugs !!!!

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  4. Oh my gosh seeing a post from you just made my whole day! I could almost cry tears of joy- I wish I could just reach out and give you a big welcome home hug. I’m so so sorry to hear about Vivi 😦 Sending all my love, thoughts and prayers. ❤

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    1. I feel your hug! Thank you so much for your warm welcome back. I was a little nervous about it but I’m feeling great about it now. Thank you for your condolences about Vivi. There are no words for how difficult losing her has and continues to be. ❤

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  5. Hey Nikki, my beautiful brave friend. It’s so good to see you back here. I saw your post on Insta and I know you’re still hurting over Vivi, such a deep loss. Sending you a big warm hug from over here and once again, it’s great to see you back. xx

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  6. *big hugs*

    You have my sincerest condolences and my support. I know what it’s like to leave and have to come back home. WordPress will always be that.

    Welcome back. Trust that you have been missed.

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    1. Tre, Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words. Being here again is wonderful. After Vivi’s death, I just could not bring myself to write anything. It still feels very strange and uncomfortable to write without her beside me. She was by my side long before A Kinder Way but that also means she was with me from the first thought of A Kinder Way and she was also a big part of the inspiration for this blog and its subject matter. I know many people will never understand the way I feel or why my grief runs so deeply for her, but that’s ok. Some bonds are just not meant to be put into words. ❤ Hug Jernee for me. ❤

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      1. You don’t need them to understand, that’s for certain. She was your baby, your sweet girl. I certainly feel your pain. You’re most welcome. You take your time, we’ll all be here.

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  7. Eek!! I’m so glad that you are back!! I’m traveling so I haven’t been as frequent on WP and I saw your name when I was catching up on Mackenzie’s blog! I watched the Hay House Summit this year and thought of you and was wondering how you had been! At the time, I even checked to make sure I hadn’t missed you on IG. I remembered you watching it and sharing about it and when I heard about it through an email from Nick Ortner (I also learned about EFT through you!), I knew I had to watch it. It’s true, sometimes we need a break. At one point I tried changing my direction with the blog and then lost most of my joy in blogging. I’m taking some much needed time with my children and blogging a bit, but I think when I become more regular, I will be shifting back to my original intentions. Sharing things I love and learn about life.

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    1. Thank you Amy!!! ❤
      I'm so thrilled that you took part in the Hay House Summit this year. It's a wonderful experience each year. So enlightening and uplifting and informative and…and …and… 😉
      I hope you enjoy your time with your kids fully. This time is so precious.
      Yes!! I lost my joy as well because I was not being authentic. I wonder how many others have reached that point? I'm betting there a lot of us. 😉
      I look forward to you returning when you are ready. ❤

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